Do you ever just wanna pack up your things and go away. Start completely over delete all you old social media bullshit and just live.. Or die…Anything.. Well I’ve got these thoughts for far to fucking long. I’ve been a useless nothing for far long to. It’s not that I don’t appreciate the people and things in my life. It’s that I’ve been too comfortably numb for to long that I just need to dive out. Sick of feeling like I do.. Sick of being addicted sick of it all. I don’t even know what the fuck I want anymore. My hearts aching, for to long. I know life is great and I see it, I just don’t feel it. I hope one day I can look back and see this being a chapter of my life instead of it dripping through forever. You know sometimes I do get a little resentful and cold about you leaving earth like you did leaving your broken family leaving me in the rubble. But I don’t want to think selfish. If nothing was good enough I guess I’ll just have to find meaning myself to give purpose.